Open to heal


God doesn’t hide his depressing saints in the Bible and you shouldn’t too.
– Dave Furman

I often wonder, what if everyone was completely open about their hurts, their weaknesses, their pains, their failures, their regrets, et cetera and et cetera. I often imagine such an idealized scenario, and wonder, would that make the world a better place? I suppose, two things would happen, if such idealized imagination ever become a reality. These two things are, first, people will demean you, make fun, gossip, and do every possibly imaginable negative thing. Second, it will make everyone extremely sympathetic towards each other. Because, truth be told, we are all hurting in one way or the other. And as familiarity breeds compassion, such familiarity of each other’s struggle would perhaps breed compassion for one another. But what about the initial negativity that one would need to face when one chooses to open up? I believe there are no remedy for that. I guess, that is one necessary trial we would all need to overcome, like the Jordan to Joshua. I bet it sounds intimidating, but I suppose that is all. It only sounds intimidating. But for that fear, should we not open up at all about our hurts?

The Book, I figure says the opposite. In order to heal, you need to open your wounds. Confess your sins to one another, it says. There are two very practical reasons for this. One, you are relief from constantly holding up your walls to hide your sins. And second, the vacant space left behind, creates room for hope. Hope, on the other hand is a positive energy – it ultimately brings healing. Beyond that, spiritually, when you confess your sins, you first admit your sinful state – this leaves you incompetent to judge others. Consequently, you are at a very receptive stage. You are desperate for healing. Your desperation opens your eyes towards other’s desperation for Jesus Christ. This forms a bond, this bond becomes a body, a family, a union, stronger it leaves you more than you once were, as an individual behind your walls. Have you every wonder, if there were no throngs of people reaching out to Jesus, the woman who in desperation tried to reach for His helm of cloth, would have never come out of her home.

But why is this so hard? Is the promise of healing not greater than the fear of being ridiculed? I don’t know. I don’t have an answer. I doubt if there is an answer. Because, these are not questions that demands an answer. These are needs in demand of an action – an initiation. Some demons such as unbelief needs confrontation. I can only think of Thomas shamelessly asking Jesus to help his unbelief. And sometimes, I guess, we need to do the same. I imagine it must be hard for Thomas too. Having a social standing, the same of the other disciples, receiving the same teachings and the same experiences, yet only him asking of Jesus to confront his doubts. Likewise, this is a challenge I have taken up for myself. I am ready to forget my social standing. I am ready to say, I don’t know God, help my unbelief. I am ready to take an initiation against my natural tendencies of fear and cowering, and say, I am not fine, if I am not, the next time someone asks me how are you. I hope you would do the same. Healing is a two-way process. I want to heal. Don’t you too?